Oh Christ

[ashinae]

Yep, I'm officially Miserable.

I am lonely. My ankles are so bite-ridden that they are sore and swollen; itchy enough that I can't even register much itching at all from the bites on my back and my arms and the rest of my legs. I am exhausted; I can't sleep. I want to do things, but I don't have the energy to bother. There really isn't any food in this house, I should go and get something, even just some deli meat and bread so I can make sandwiches, but I look like hell and I don't want to wash my face or my hair or shave my legs or anything.

Oh Christ, I think I'm going to sink into yet another ghastly funk of a depression.

Fuckity.

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[esteven]

*sends mosquito lotion*
*fans ash*
*hugs massivly*
*sends more cooling thoughts*

[ashinae.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, sweetie. Now just actually come to Canada and hang out. ;) We can go in the pooooool, which is glorious.

[esteven]

Pool is always a good idea. Try and keep it for the next years, just in case.
btw,does a cold pad on your ankle help?

[ashinae.livejournal.com]

Sadly, the pool is not mine! It belongs to my best friend's family. So I'm just borrowing it while I look after their house and their dog. Of course I know I shouldn't be in it at all, not b eing a competent swimmer and being alone and all. Oh wells. *G*

[starrigan.livejournal.com]

Go to the drugstore and get calamine lotion. Trust me. It works like a charm to take away itch.

[ashinae.livejournal.com]

I actually picked up some Gold Bond medicated itch cream stuff on my mum's advice. It's worked well for the heat rash, the sunburn, and the vast majority of my mosquito bites -- not really even feeling them.

It's just the bites on my ANKLES! I guess it's because there's so many, so close together, pretty well on the boniest part of me, and so much that it hurts to walk. They're not as itchy as they were, thank god, but they hurt like hell.

[starrigan.livejournal.com]

I hate mosquitoes. HATE them. We also have black flies around here, which I also despise. Evil little bitches...

[ashinae.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks for the sympathy. Going out didn't really make me feel any better, but I'm willing to wager that most of that is because I'm so sleep deprived!

[blucola.livejournal.com]

I'm having terrible time with mosquitoes this year. And in the house there are ants, despite bug bombing they're persisting. I hate them. Deodorant soap helps me with the itching, but I know we're not all the same.

I'm just now pulling out of a depressive state of my own. It affected everything; being with people, my writing, mood, self esteem. A recent trip with hubby helped because it got me away from familair things. Sometimes just getting from the stuff that surrounds me is the best thing. Yesterday a walk fired up my energy in a way that astounded me. I had a half an hour for lunch, so I practically sprinted out of the store (I work in a Barnes and Noble bookstore) and headed off to get a wrap from Cherry's, which I ended up finding was closed. Oops. Next attempt, O'Dowd's pub which had a Beamish chicken salad (yes, I know, it sounds disgusting, but it was excellent.) Lots of walking, then sitting in the pub full of energy with no one to talk to, but people to watch was nice in a way I can't explain, let alone understand. It's not my normal pattern, you see. But maybe that's what I needed, that difference from the ordinary?

Hope you pull out of the funk before it takes hold. *hugs*

[ashinae.livejournal.com]

Oh, bugs. Hate them. Hate hate hate. Though I can't really blame them too much, on some level, for coming into our homes. We certainly go into theirs...

The walk you had sounds loverly. What's a Beamish chicken, though? Do they smile a lot? ;)

It's funny, the way people talk about fresh air and exercise making them feel better. It's always made me so miserable! Though I guess a great deal of that has to do with me being allergic to the outdoors (severe tree and grass allergies), and the way that mosquitoes looove me, and the way the sun haaates me (I'm extremely fair-skinned -- born with dark blonde/light brown hair, but any "natural" shade of red/orange looks perfectly natural on me, if that helps to paint a picture). Of course, right now the exercise I'm getting is a chore, not something that I'm doing for me. Now, if the dog would, you know, actually walk rather than drag her feet and be all "but I don't waaaaanna, I just want to smell this treeeeeee, etc" it might be different. :)

[blucola.livejournal.com]

The walk you had sounds loverly. What's a Beamish chicken, though? Do they smile a lot? ;)

Perhaps they use the Beamish to get them drunk first? *g*

It's funny, the way people talk about fresh air and exercise making them feel better. It's always made me so miserable!

That's me normally! I dunno, I think I must have had a wild hair yesterday. Either that and the coffee I drank, along with the food? Or *gasp* I might have been in a good mood. *blinks* :)