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MSNBC's "The Body Odd" article: SAD in the summer? Sunshine depression rare, but real.

When I still lived in Southern Ontario, there were a lot more people who were cranky in the summer, but when it's pushing 40 degrees because it's already 30 and there's nearly 100% humidity... well.

I like seeing the sunshine, I do. But in smaller doses. I like wearing sunglasses. I like it when there's sunshine when I'm on my way to work (7am), and when I'm on my way home (4pm).

But damn you, Calgarians. I hate the heat. I hate all of you silly people running around declaring how wonderful it is when the temperature is pushing 30 celsius. I know Calgary winters can be brutal (and I don't care what my dad says; it was definitely colder in Southern Ontario with the fucking windchill), but I am sick to death of having people look at me like I'm insane because I hate the heat and I hate summer. I hate that this city is still practically in broad daylight at 11:00pm--I can't sleep, because the temperature hasn't dropped enough even by then to cool down my apartment. I don't sleep enough. I don't eat enough because it is too hot to even think about food, let alone cooking it. I hate that when I step outside from the air conditioned mall to head home by foot or by bus and I feel sweaty, pressed-on, smothered, dirty, cranky. Did I mention the part where I really hate how I instantly feel like I need to wash my hands? And yes I'm a grumpy old woman because it's just 1 July and already I'm sick to death of seeing everyone's ass-cheeks peeking out of their too-short shorts. That's not sexy.

I don't tan; I burn. I get eaten alive by mosquitoes. Fuck you; 21 celsius is perfectly acceptable and wonderful and is far more reasonable than 27. Yes, I absolutely hate summer. I get depressed in the summer. I don't sleep. I don't eat and I lose weight rapidly. I feel weak and tired and on edge and I could just set things on fire. I snap at my family, I snap at my co-workers, I want to murder half of our patients.

As soon as the temperature drops consistently back down to the high teens/low twenties? I'm back to normal.

And while I'm at it? Yeah, I don't enjoy Christmas, either.

( Text of the article copied here, mostly for my own reference and posterity. )

( Just my day in a nutshell; some whining and such. )

So in less whiny news:

1. That vid has been removed. Wow.

fiercy and

linden_jay are like great shining knights and they're my heroes, and they were patient and polite but stubborn and, wow.

2. I think I'm writing Beckett/Lorne. All I can say is, blame

linden_jay. It makes no sense, except to us, but there you go.

3. The wee puppeh has no tail now. And a shaved bum. It's actually kind of funny. But sad. But funny.

4. I've re-watched Doctor Who 3x01 and 3x02, and, dammit, I like the episodes and I like Martha, and I won't apologise for it, and so there.

5. I want to be a dork and say "OMG THERE IS NO FIVE", but, I posted penguins for everybody, and the silly SGA fic that I'm still not sure about really, and Sean Bean is going to be here next week.

Or, well, his voice at least. *g* STAY TUNED. LotR radio production will follow that.

6. IS IT SPRING? Cuz it neither looks nor feels like spring. My hands are frozen like icicles.

7. I'm getting my allergies tested on Monday morning. Which means, after tonight? No antihistamines for the Ash, and I have to work tomorrow, and I suspect I shall be miserable. AND they want me to go in to work after the test and I'm just like "HA HA, well, I was only scheduled for 5 to close, but I'll just be there when I feel humanish again." It's been several years, but I remember feeling rather horrifically awful after I got my allergies tested the last time, and feeling rather horrifically awful for several hours, even after a shower and a massive dose of antihistamines.

8. I want Heroes back NOW, dammit. Oh, and the last several weeks' worth of online comics? I soooo called the identities of Austin and Dallas. What do I win??

Hello out there!

Let's see. I am now feeling mostly better; much of the allergic reaction has died down, to be replaced by the more familiar feel of my typical, springtime, please give me new sinuses, God feeling of... ick. *G* The Benadryl has cleared my system; yes, yes, I took far too much. Doctor has recommended Allegra for regular daytime and such use, if the Reactine (allergy+sinus) doesn't do me any good. Doctor is supposed to get things set up for me to have allergies tested; we'll see how that goes. Undoubtedly, the allergic reaction was, in fact, to the lip balm, considering the state my lips were in when I was applying it in such quantities. I have a prescription for an epi-pen now.

I sat in the doctor's office for nearly 2 hours before I got to see her. She saw me for 5 minutes and rushed me out. WHOOP DE YAY. People wonder why I dont' ever want to see my doctor.

Am still very tired. Arms feel very heavy. Bowling thing for work tomorrow night. I work all day, 8:45-6:30. I didn't want to go initially because, UGH, bowling, not my thing, but now? I want to go even less. I feel OOGIE and I don't expect that to go away tomorrow. :-/

I am already near to the end of the second season of Doctor Who, which I received for my birthday. Haven't been much in the mood for anything else. Of course, now that I'm about halfway through the second-last episode, and Knowing What Happens, I am less inclined to actually want to watch. Just because I don't want to See What Happens. Sometimes, it's good to know Things Like This well in advance. Otherwise? Oh, boo. :(

My lovely, 5GB Creative Zen Micro just sort of gave up the ghost this week. It only plays for 20 minutes when it's not plugged in; then it freezes, and you have to remove the battery and put it back several times before it MIGHT boot back up, and then tell you the battery's dead. Went back to Best Buy, warranty in hand, and got told they just couldn't fix it. The model's not made anymore. They can't get me a new battery. D: I was all prepared to have to fight tooth and nail like I did with my DVD player (which I still miss, by the by) from Future Shop. Nope! They just said "We'll give you the credit for what you paid for, and you can pick out a new one!" I said, OK! I now own a 30GB music/video/photo Creative ... Vision, I think. I'm feeling to blah and lazy to check.

My mummy's making a webpage for her dog club. Did I ever mention that? I am very proud of her.

So I have a wee problem. Late last week, I woke up, my lips were so dry and chapped they were bleeding. This problem continued for a while. Lots of Burt's Bees lip balm applied. Some Ozonol to try to heal the cracks and bleeding.

A day or so later, I have what appears to be a wee reddish pimple above my lip.

This problem gets owrse. More spring up. It gets itchy. Lips? Still painfully dry; eating anything with pretty well any seasoning makes lips sting. The way they would if they were all dry and chapped and, hi, bleeding if I smile too big. Or yawn to big.

Cue yesterday. Mouth very swollen. Rash all the way around. Ithcy as fuck. Go out to dinner with my parents -- chinese food -- very salty and spicy and my lips hurt again on top of the itching. So we stop at a shoppers Drug Mart on the way, I go to the antihistimes. I've tried a lot of stuff for my allergies (since I have some very severe enivironmental ones) and grab Benadryl, since it's one I've never tried. Talk to the pharmaicist; he's all "yes, hon, you DO need to see your doctor" as well as saying that the Benadryl may cause drowsiness. However, take two as soon as possible, and then one every four to six hours.

Took the two when I got home at 7:30 ish last night. Was pretty well unconcious on my feet by 9:00. Went to bed. Still, despite how groggy I was, managed to actually wake up around 12:30 and again at 6:00. Took one pill each time.

HOLY CRAP I FEEL LIKE I'M HAVING A BAD TRIP AND I HAVE TO GO TO WORK AND AGH. As I get to this point, LI have been typing this entry for a half hour to ensure it's coherent. I'm shaky, very aware of my heartbeat, and I just want to go back to bed but I have to leave for work in ten minutes. I am very aware of things, but I'm spacey, it's strange, and it's taking so much concentration to be coherent. Agh.

This? Is exactly what I went through when I was having those problem siwth my back last summer and was taking extra strength Robaxecet (muscle relaxant) so I could sleep at night and be somewhat functioning through the day.

I DON'T LIKE IT. THIS IS WHY I DO NOT DO DRUGS. It is bad. :(

OK. Off to work with me. HA HA HA HA this'll be a fucking JOKE.

Wow, I don't update often anymore, do I? Does anybody care?

1) Am in rather extraordinary amounts of pain. I hurt my back at my old job, moving stock that I just was not physically strong enough to move (boxes weighing 30, 40, or more pounds, and doing all the shelf-stocking on my own, because I was junior on the stepladder). I've always had trouble with my lower back and my shoulders; this has caused me to now have lots of trouble with my upper back. The more time I spend with this new job of being on my feet all the time, the worse my back has been getting. I visit the chiropractor about twice weekly now. :-/ Am kind of fucked all over with this; nothing got done with WSIB because I didn't really know about it, didn't talk to my parents about how much pain I really was in when management at the last job just didn't seem willing to take an interest in adjusting my schedule to allow me to get the treatment I needed, and of course didn't take the responsibility of filing an accident report with the WSIB in the first place. And now it's been well over six months, and I'm SOL. Woe.

2)

nemerl_mush.

3) I've spent the past while "watching" B5 from start to finish. The ending of that show bloody well kills me. I sob my way through "Sleeping in Light". Lochley grows on me the more I watch it; I think I just got annoyed because she wasn't Ivanova, and because of the character she played on Lois and Clark.

4) Am distinctly unhappy with my body again.

5) Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children vid continues. It's taken me many, many hours -- like, three hours for 20 seconds of fairly uncomplicated footage. If it's complicated, it can take much longer. I've run out of how long, exactly, I've been working on it. I have a minute left.

6) There is no six.

7) Apparently there isn't a seven, either. Am very boring.

1) To the world: two more days. Wow.

2) To my school: Tomorrow is my last ever Classical Design class. I am handing in my projects and then I am registering for next term and by god if you fail me for this class, I am going to raise the biggest fucking stink you have ever seen, you jerks.

3) To my body: Look. Twelve days is quite a long time to be sick. I think it's time you stopped. First it was with the headaches and the dizziness and the aching and the being freezing. That passed, and all was good. And then it was with the stomach issues, and that sucked more ass than Aragorn does. That passed, and all was good. And then there was the sore throat, which wasn't so bad, because I could drink and eat lots of hot, soft foods, and I could cope. That passed after a few days, and everything was okay. But now? Now you give me a very stuffed up nose. And you know what? You can frelling blow me. I have waited a year for RotK, do you understand that? My ticket is non-refundable. I will NOT sit there in the theatre for over three hours not being able to breathe. GET BETTER kthxbye.

4) New vid. Been working on it for well over a month now, put the final finishing touches on it today. Am feeling far too icky to make much effort to do a proper vidpost. Whisper, music by Evanescence. Duration: a little less than 5:30. Size: the 18MB range. High quality here WMV, folks. No slashier than the actual movies are. Angst. Pretty much everybody's in it.

( lyrics )

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: M&C soundtrack. Still.