pain and suffering in various tempos

I'm quite envious of the fact that you obviously come from an open-minded environment! While it was never drilled into my head when I was young that gay = bad, and my parents DID let me make up my mind about almost everything, they'd certainly not be approving of my slashy interests. But it does seem that for a fair number slashers, when we were young, it just sort of came naturally -- though of course others, like a friend of mine, certainly had to be introduced to it from an outside source. I'm very intrigued :)