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May. 4th, 2006 09:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Two weeks after my computer dies, and my two USB 2.0 ports seem to be well and truly borked. WTF.
I can't access my external hard drive; it tells me to insert a disk into removable drive F:! My vid is on there; my vid which is thisclose to being DONE and ready to go and I can't access it. And I can't print! With my brand new beautiful printer!
I turn this stuff on and the computer tells me it's found new hardware, but it can't install them. They're already installed! *sobs*
Also, pain was horrific today; I freaked out completely at work (thankfully I'd mostly made my way to the bathroom there. I would have probably been ok if co-worker hadn't asked what was wrong and thus precipiated the freak-outage).
Cashed out; called parents to come get me and the car. Went to the clinic with mum; was there for three hours. Now have dates with x-ray people to check to see if there are disk problems (oy vey) and also a physiotherapist, and the clinic doctor was very nice to give me anti-inflammatories, which my GP wouldn't give me (7.5mg; they haven't made the pain go completely, but it's lessened).
Am so, so angry. Angry at myself for pushing my body last year in ways it couldn't be pushed, and for ignoring the minor aches that I would have almost constantly when I was sitting in the chairs at work. I'm pissed off at my last place of employment for not filing an accident claim, which they should have, because they had records from my chiropractor that this was related to what I was doing at work. I'm pissed off at myself for not complaining more loudly and beating my parents over the head with my injury and my pain, because now they're like "Oh, well, you should have filed with the WSIB!" (grr).
I'm also scared; scared that I'll lose this job which I so desperately need. Which I want to keep. But I'll call and check in tomorrow, and ask about keeping my shifts down to 4-6 hours, which I can handle pretty well. I can't handle anything longer than that; the 8 hours on Saturday, and 9 hours on Monday, and 8 hours yesterday just killed me (had Sunday off, but if I remember correctly I did spend part of that day running around, but I can't really remember now), did 5.5 hours on Tuesday and I was pretty well okay physically.
I hate my life. I know, I know there are people who have it worse than I do, but I don't live their lives. I live mine. And I'm having Issues™ with mine.
Anything anybody can think of that I can check for my USB ports? *bites nails* I want to get that vid finished and posted and and and I can't D:
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Two weeks after my computer dies, and my two USB 2.0 ports seem to be well and truly borked. WTF.
I can't access my external hard drive; it tells me to insert a disk into removable drive F:! My vid is on there; my vid which is thisclose to being DONE and ready to go and I can't access it. And I can't print! With my brand new beautiful printer!
I turn this stuff on and the computer tells me it's found new hardware, but it can't install them. They're already installed! *sobs*
Also, pain was horrific today; I freaked out completely at work (thankfully I'd mostly made my way to the bathroom there. I would have probably been ok if co-worker hadn't asked what was wrong and thus precipiated the freak-outage).
Cashed out; called parents to come get me and the car. Went to the clinic with mum; was there for three hours. Now have dates with x-ray people to check to see if there are disk problems (oy vey) and also a physiotherapist, and the clinic doctor was very nice to give me anti-inflammatories, which my GP wouldn't give me (7.5mg; they haven't made the pain go completely, but it's lessened).
Am so, so angry. Angry at myself for pushing my body last year in ways it couldn't be pushed, and for ignoring the minor aches that I would have almost constantly when I was sitting in the chairs at work. I'm pissed off at my last place of employment for not filing an accident claim, which they should have, because they had records from my chiropractor that this was related to what I was doing at work. I'm pissed off at myself for not complaining more loudly and beating my parents over the head with my injury and my pain, because now they're like "Oh, well, you should have filed with the WSIB!" (grr).
I'm also scared; scared that I'll lose this job which I so desperately need. Which I want to keep. But I'll call and check in tomorrow, and ask about keeping my shifts down to 4-6 hours, which I can handle pretty well. I can't handle anything longer than that; the 8 hours on Saturday, and 9 hours on Monday, and 8 hours yesterday just killed me (had Sunday off, but if I remember correctly I did spend part of that day running around, but I can't really remember now), did 5.5 hours on Tuesday and I was pretty well okay physically.
I hate my life. I know, I know there are people who have it worse than I do, but I don't live their lives. I live mine. And I'm having Issues™ with mine.
Anything anybody can think of that I can check for my USB ports? *bites nails* I want to get that vid finished and posted and and and I can't D:
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