What You Will - Chapter 8: Life Less Ordinary
by ashinae and linden_jay

Chapter 1: Unknown Bride | Chapter 2: A Girl and Her Horse | Chapter 3: For the First Time | Chapter 4: Torn to Tatters | Chapter 5: Love Loss Hope Repeat | Chapter 6: Follow the Lady | Chapter 7: Learn to Fly | Chapter 8: Life Less Ordinary

( There had been days since Loki came to Asgard when Thor had found excuse after excuse to stay away from the palace until evening, avoiding his wife and all of his responsibilities toward her. )

What You Will - Chapter 6: Follow the Lady
by ashinae and linden_jay

Chapter 1: Unknown Bride | Chapter 2: A Girl and Her Horse | Chapter 3: For the First Time | Chapter 4: Torn to Tatters | Chapter 5: Love Loss Hope Repeat | Chapter 6: Follow the Lady | Chapter 7: Learn to Fly | Chapter 8: Life Less Ordinary

( Odin and Frigga joined Thor and Loki in the healing rooms just as Loki's leg was being bandaged. )

What You Will - Chapter 4: Torn to Tatters
by ashinae and linden_jay

Chapter 1: Unknown Bride | Chapter 2: A Girl and Her Horse | Chapter 3: For the First Time | Chapter 4: Torn to Tatters | Chapter 5: Love Loss Hope Repeat | Chapter 6: Follow the Lady | Chapter 7: Learn to Fly | Chapter 8: Life Less Ordinary

( Cesario--Loki, as Cesario--perched on a low wall, eating some grapes. )

What You Will - Chapter 2: A Girl and Her Horse
by ashinae and linden_jay

Chapter 1: Unknown Bride | Chapter 2: A Girl and Her Horse | Chapter 3: For the First Time | Chapter 4: Torn to Tatters | Chapter 5: Love Loss Hope Repeat | Chapter 6: Follow the Lady | Chapter 7: Learn to Fly | Chapter 8: Life Less Ordinary

( Loki went to the library. A guard had to help her carry all the books, pens, and notebooks back to her new room . . . )

In which Ash doesn't have a single Marvel icon. Odd.

Title: what stays and what fades away
Fandom: The Avengers (2012 - Marvel movieverse)
Pairing(s): Loki/Tony Stark; mentions Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, Pepper Potts/Tony Stark
Rating/Warning: NC-17; rape, explicit M/M sex, bad things
Word Count: 3771

"I would break you, mortal. I could not make you mine before, but I will now. I have subtler methods at my disposal. I will bend you, break you, see you reborn, and you will be mine. You will be my masterpiece."

Read it at AO3.

( what stays and what fades away - by ashinae )

I got the latest London Drugs savings event flyer in the mail today.

It features a little girl lying in a field of flowers, obviously dreaming about the items that are floating above her head.

They are:
- A cell phone
- A pink Hello Kitty thermos
- A bottle of designer perfume
- A babycakes cupcake maker
- Herbal Essences shampoo
- A camera

If this was a little boy, he would be, I don't know, sitting in the middle of a sandpit or something butch like that. Maybe riding a tractor! And floating over his head would be more appropriately butch shit. Axe body spray? More gadgets, surely. An XBOX, perhaps.

Really, advertisers? Really?

***

In other news, just a heartfelt and as-always very late thank you for everyone who has commented to me, everyone who has sent me e-mails, and anyone who still reads my blatherings. Life is hard. Being a grown-up is hard. I'm coping poorly. But I ain't quite down for the count.

♥

I have this top that I have paired with a daringly wee (for me) black skirt, a tiny black shrug, and will wear with a pair of black heels.

What the HELL do I put on my legs. It is winter! And I ALWAYS wear black microfibre tights unless it's over 10 degrees (celsius) outside. I won't go bare-legged. Do I dare to track down fishnets for a fat chick? Do I just go with nude hose? I DON'T KNOW. SOMEONE HELP.

( Real life crap: I didn't want to go to the Christmas party this year. )

I was bullied. I was bullied for being overweight and for being smarter than the other kids. I wasn't bullied for being queer. It's not outwardly obvious that I'm queer. But I am. And every time a public figure speaks out about their own struggles, about their own sexuality, about being an ally--it feels better. It helps.

I'm a twenty-nine year old woman living in the closet in my meatspace life. I can see Narnia from here. I work in an office surrounded by women. I live in a city that I don't feel will be entirely welcoming of me or an entirely happy place to live as someone who is not straight and I don't believe most of my family--especially my parents and siblings--will be supportive of me were I to come out. Sure, I can fake it. I am physically attracted to men. I can fake it. I can pretend that I could be happy in a relationship with one and get married and be "normal". But that's not what I want. That is not what I believe my future should be. I have opportunities in this country for equal marriage and an equal life, but my current situation holds me back and that hurts.

Every time another public figure--athlete, politician, musician, actor--comes out and talks about their own struggles, it makes me feel like things can maybe, one day, be okay. I cry tears of joy and relief and maybe just a little bit of a self-pity.

Every time someone tries to derail discussion about LGTBQ issues, I get angry. I get frustrated. I get sad and scared and it hurts like a motherfucker. Sometimes a discussion is just about homosexuality. Sometimes it's just about misogyny. Sometimes it's just about racism. Not all discussions are or need to be all-inclusive. Sometimes they are. But other times, a public figure--no matter their sexuality or situation--wants to talk about this one issue and I wish people would let them.

And now I'm gonna tell you.

I haven't even seen X-Men: First Class (YET!), but I do so love MuLan (she's my favourite Disney princess, even). And this vid over on YouTube is a First Class training montagey sort of vid set to "I'll Make a Man Out of You" and it is WONDERFUL. Go, watch, and like.

Incidentally, I still haven't seen Deathly Hallows Part II yet, either. Or Thor. Those were kind of the only summer movies I wanted to see, but I am officially boycotting the multiplex in protest of 3D movies and ticket prices. So yeah.

I will only break the boycott to go see Star Trek 2 when it comes out, but that is ONLY because I will be going with my mother. I can't say no to seeing a Star Trek movie with my mum; we have seen all of them in the theatre together since Undiscovered Country, except for 2009's Star Trek because at the time we were in different provinces.

ANYWAY. Go watch that video up there. *points at link*

Title: The Pack
Authors: ashinae and linden_jay
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Pairing(s): John Sheppard/Rodney McKay; (off screen) Teyla Emmagan/Evan Lorne, Ronon Dex/Jennifer Keller, John Sheppard/Aiden Ford, Rodney McKay/Peter Grodin
Rating/Warning: NC-17 for explicit m/m sex, language, and violence
Word Count: ~64700
Summary: When Major John Sheppard shoots Colonel Sumner, he thinks of only one thing: keep the creature feeding on him from learning their secrets. He doesn't think that with that one act, he'll become Alpha of the pack in the Atlantis expedition.

That alone is weird enough, but John still has to navigate his new werewolf pack, military politics, witches, evil space vampires, Genii, and Replicators. There's the bonus complication of the grief, joy, wonder, and terror that is life in the Pegasus Galaxy. Add to that his frustration with--and maybe even feelings for--Dr Rodney McKay, and now the lone-wolf life John once enjoyed is even further behind him than it was the moment he stepped through the stargate and emerged in the city of Atlantis.

Notes: For au_bigbang. Thanks to dwg for creating a beautiful playlist and artwork and to green_grrl for her beta work. Follows the entire five-year arc of SGA. So: spoilers galore. While we have attempted to remain as faithful as possible to the canon, we have certainly taken some liberties (see: pairings above) and while respecting events as they have happened, we have also changed some to fit our purposes (see: werewolves).

And the disclaimer: Stargate: Atlantis is the brainchild of Brad Wright & Robert C Cooper. We wrote this for fun, not for profit.



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